Im kinda sad :( i started thinking about an old flame in which i got burned *Tear* i sorta miss him, even if i could never be with him...i think James doesnt like it when i talk about him :( which he has never said but i jkust feel that way.

Today was really fun i got to hang out with a friend and do my second double date EVER!!! And i got to wear my cat earsin high point for the forth time, at least this time i didnt have some random drunk girl all over me trying to touch my cat ears going hows a good kitty :p blah! Well me and james are hanging out now. On the way to Huddle house, YAY!!! I think me and ashley can be firends now.

Im at work and i dont want to be here....i wonder if i type up more then one page will it all upload as one single post or not :/ i guess i can experment with this, some people at my work are sorta pissing me off. I am looking for a second job or possabily another job all together. I need one that will either pay me more or give me more hours. At least $400 a month. The job i have now is a little over $300 and i can barely make the payments on the bills and still have enough money for food and gas. I tried making commissions on deviant art, but no one was buying so i changed it back to requests. I am going to try my hand at making things to sell, maybe i can at least do that :). One of the people that keep talking to me and then stopping saying something about drama and all that has started talking to me again, already in about two - three messages i am getting that old feeling back and one where i feel like she is so much better then me then realize what a liar she is.

Lol
(lots of licks)
Ari-kitty <3

another day another night

Today we went to Highpoint to watch a movie at the dollar theater ^3^ YAY!!! We ended up watching Beastly, Modern day beauty and the beast. Its a really good movie and I recommend it to anyone that loves Beauty and the Beast <3
The outfit I wore was my new purple and black stripe skirt (got for Christmas) white tank top under a black see-through black top that is lolita style. I topped it off with a pair of sassy heels/sandals. Needless to say I was proud of my outfit of the day ^-^
Later on the way to wal-mart (where we went first) I decided to put my cat ears on. Everyone in Asheboro are quite use to seeing me wear them, so no second glances, etc. But up in Highpoint I had a drunk woman come really close to my face and poke my ear with the bell, saying how cute they were. Then proceeded to ask me what club were we going to. I told her its my every day wear (well when I get out of the house ^-^") and that we were just going to see a movie. She couldn't believe it, she insisted we were lying. I really didnt know what to say, so I moved out of her way and let Sara handle it -_-.

That was really the only odd reaction I had gotten while up there. At the movies a guy noticed Liz and started talking to her about AZ TWO years ago @.@ WAH!!!! I remembered him only from him signing my drawing book...thats it -_-' but he remembered Liz really well...>.o Then after the movie a girl in the bathroom said she liked my ears and outfit. Sara (from the stall) says "she gets that a lot" which makes me blush. I wanted to pounce on her when she came out, but I didnt.

Other then that nothing new has happened...well...we went through the Sheetz car wash and the two back windows (sara on the left liz on the right) and the right front one (mine) all started leaking so we three got wet, James (the driver) sat untouched >< I bet whoever was watching that video was laughing there butts off T^T then that night they park the car under the trees in our backyard...yep 4 counts of bird poop, and a bunch of fallen stuff from the tree ALL over the nicely washed car...I am not going through it again >.< NO WAY!!!

ok it is 4 am in the morning I am tired. nite people. I hope I can keep writing more for you all ^-^

Lots of kisses
Ari-kitty <3

Trying this for the first time, lets see how it works :)

*sigh* life just doesnt like me...

Well I am going to have to hold off on the cosplay, though I started making the small things, I dont have enough money for the BIG things XD I lost one impotent income of mine and is currently looking for a second job T^T

However I now have my own home and is happy living with my boi <3 I havent got the money nor the time to really dress up anymore (ie. Cat ears and tail) so I havent got to do a lot, eh, thats life.

I now have a tumblr, formspring and a few facebooks ( which I am still trying to keep up with them and all that @.@) I have made new friends and enemies all in the past 4(well almost 5) months of this year, its looking down (once again...)

I am also feeling like there is something wrong with me, its a irking feeling that something bad is going to happen to me :/ I am just holding my breath and waiting...and waiting -_-'

I have been trying different things with my youtube...I will have to work on that some more ^-^"

and thats the end of this blog, hopefully I can write something more interesting next time .-.

Love,
Ari-kitty :3

New year, new hobbies to try!

Hmm...I really dont know how to start this...sooo yeah. I guess I should first say, this past year has had a lot of downs and very few ups. I got into fights with my friends (the first time) I finally stopped talking to one, but just a month later SHE texted me wanting us to be friends again, NOW she is inoring my friend request, saying she doesnt need anymore drama....whatever, I didnt want to be her friend about two months ago...

getting into better topics, this year I want to make my own cosplays (and help my friends make theirs) I should start in February and have at least one done by May ( I plan on spending my spare time on it...so it should be done sooner!) The first one I am going to attempt is Panty's Angelic form from the Anime Panty and Stocking with Garterbelt!

I will be posting more things on here and my Otaku life:Girl style blog more this year! I have lots planned out and all that <3

Thank you for reading these the past year! and I hope you have a great one this year!

Ari kitty <3

WOW How long has it been?

Yesh it has been awhile since I have blogged...I have been in a funk that just isnt cool anymore :/

I now work at Dominos.Only on the weekends :( though. I want to try to get another job ;)

My school is at a stand still once again...I am just like my mom :C I just cant find the motivation to do it...it really sucks because I really want to go to college! >:D I really want to. But not the community college kind but the dorm room kind. Kay is going to one and I really want to ^_^ But to do so I have to get a scholarship and there is NO way I am...since I am home schooled and all...I wonder if there is something I can do to make this all better...Maybe I should get anti-depresses, that might be for the best...but I dont know how I will go and get them and all that, since James is my ride nowdays and he doesnt want me on them :/ what to do, what to do..

Well one good thing James and I have worked things out ^-^ and are stronger now! I really hope things can stay like this...You see I have felt like his love was slipping from me...Ever since he met Ashley I have felt like i was second best. Like he didnt have to show me how much he loved me, etc etc. Well I got fed up with it. If I meant soo much to him he needed to start showing it (and I dont mean in buying me things either!) I told him I just wanted to be friends. I loved him soo much, but things have changed...and by changing I just didnt feel all that happy anymore :( He started crying and just stairing at me. I told him about all the things that bothered me. All the times my heart hurt just thinking about. All the things he did for others but not me (and how I REALLY wanted him to do it to me(like breakfast!))
He kept nodding and crying, finally he said the words I really needed to hear. (Not telling you) and I started crying I told him I was sorry over and over and he just kept hugging me tightly (after about a minute I realized he probably thought me saying Im sorry that I was leaving him) When he said I love you soo much, I looked him in the eye and said I love you to, I will never leave...amd me kissed and hugged and cried. I felt soo happy to be in his arms and him holding me so tightly. I dont want to ever forget that night <3 The night I opened up and finally put all my thoughts and feelings on the line. Me and him fixed it and ever since then I have felt like it use to. I dont blame him or anyone else for all the pain I felt, I never told anyone instead I kept pushing away and pushing away...

On to more EXCITING news! I got the complete Chobits manga (^-^) Its in the new 2 collectors edition books. I love them soo much!!! I also got four Aero shirts (which I would never in a million years buy for myself!) and Mudd jeans (WHICH I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR!!!!!!!) all that is earlier Christmas!!!! I wish I could say I was getting really awesome gothic clothes...but my mom isnt that awesome and my dad...well I might be getting awesome gothic clothes from him :/ We well just have to wait and see. Gram just gave me money (which I already spent) on food at subway and a Cancer shirt from Wal-mart ^-^ I love that shirt! I have been working hard on making sure chey got a special christmas...I got her complete Powerpuff Girls seasons, and Laptop (which I gave to her early) Futurama seasons 1-4 and a cosplay. Which I just got to get the gloves, mustache and shoes for. (I already spent $100 on it :( but it was worth it)

Ok it is really late and I need sleep, gots to work tomorrow...*sigh* I hope I find my Motivation soon, or else I am going to fall behind ANOTHER year -_-' Any tips?


~Ari M.