Well my life feels like its going down hill fast. I'm sure all the people who hate me are trilled to hear this and all that comes with it. I hate how I feel like I am drowning and no one is going to help me out.
Me and my sister needed to get away for awhile so we went to Dustins for just six days. Heather stayed there with us as well. Me cheyenne and Heather all slept in the living room, James and Dustin in the bedroom. During that time me and James did not have sex. nor did anyone else in that house. RIght now DSS (Department of Social Services) is now saying I abused my sister by having sex right in front of her, and that Trevor is unfit to live at Grams with us. I need all the help I can in setting things right. I know that Trevor is wild at times, but he has gotten use to Gram and me and Cheyenne and we know how to handle him. Sending him to a new home would do more damage then good. PEOPLE NEED TO LEAVE MY FAMILY ALONE!!! I MEAN WHAT THE HELL DID WE DO TO THEM (YOU)!!!!!!!! I have had sooo many freaking problems and then one wants to say I, I ,need to grow up. I have grown up. I have had to go through so much shit that right now realty is nothing but what I breath. If you are reading this and keep thinking how "idiotic" this all is then you dont understand any of these things. You have never had to worry how you are going to get by the next day. Things like this is real and I have had to face them. NOW that me and Cheyenne has a nice "stable" place to live people are saying we dont. People need to learn to keep their noises out of my and my familys life.
That is all. I might delete this account and all my others. Because I am tired of getting harassed about false and idiotic stuff.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Friday, July 2, 2010
True Otaku Life : Girl Style (3)
I have uploaded the first part to my alice in wonderland fan fiction. Its about this girl named Alex and she is a descendant of Alice. All her life she searches for the white rabbit, and when she finally starts liking her life things get....confusing.
Its on my Deviant Art mostly because I dont have a fanfiction.net account. http://bellaari-edwardjames.deviantart.com/ that is the link to y Deviant art ^-^
On another note my birthday is July 3rd TOMORROW!!! my emotions have been like a roller coaster all week!!! I have Otaku-ed over do many things this pass two weeks its not funny! I feel like my head is about to explode with ideas for all the things I keep coming up with XD Next month I hope to buy the Sailor Mars cosplay. and then the wig the next month. Thats one of the cosplays I wanted to have for next Animazement! I also hope to start on the others...I also hope to get a job, but till then School work school wor school work!!!
TTFN!
Rawr,
Ari~♥~
Its on my Deviant Art mostly because I dont have a fanfiction.net account. http://bellaari-edwardjames.deviantart.com/ that is the link to y Deviant art ^-^
On another note my birthday is July 3rd TOMORROW!!! my emotions have been like a roller coaster all week!!! I have Otaku-ed over do many things this pass two weeks its not funny! I feel like my head is about to explode with ideas for all the things I keep coming up with XD Next month I hope to buy the Sailor Mars cosplay. and then the wig the next month. Thats one of the cosplays I wanted to have for next Animazement! I also hope to start on the others...I also hope to get a job, but till then School work school wor school work!!!
TTFN!
Rawr,
Ari~♥~
Monday, June 28, 2010
Good morning to all you happy people ^-^ Today I spent about three hours trying to find out if three people are allowed to get married in the USA. I was wondering because on this old movie (from tv) this man married like 13 woman and I think it was in the USA that this was...well I was trying to find out if that could be possible.
Plus I wish to marry three people lol j/k
Anyways I am also trying to get over my Writers block and I am trying to figure out how to make a Totoro Cosplay...YAY! oh well I guess if I dont figure that out I still have Tao, Tsubaki and Sailor Mars ^-^ Plus I want to try to do a Mrs. Bitters cosplay lol
MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 5 DAYS!!!!!
That is all
Rawr,
Ari~♥~
Plus I wish to marry three people lol j/k
Anyways I am also trying to get over my Writers block and I am trying to figure out how to make a Totoro Cosplay...YAY! oh well I guess if I dont figure that out I still have Tao, Tsubaki and Sailor Mars ^-^ Plus I want to try to do a Mrs. Bitters cosplay lol
MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 5 DAYS!!!!!
That is all
Rawr,
Ari~♥~
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
True Otaku life : Girl style (2)
I didnt get the job :'( but they said to come back once school is back in, so I still have a chance. At least they asked for a interview more then I can say the others did.
But while I was there (buying the awesome purple dress that looks good on me) Anne, at the time I didnt know her name, saw my Kyo bag and we started talking about anime, animazement (she was there this last year) and I told her about Otaku Club ^-^ Her and her friend Kat are comming to the next meeting.....YAY!!!!! lol
Anywhos I started drawing my Maximum Ride OC's again. Avril and Adam. Fangs older twin siblings. Fang doesnt know about them but they know about Fang. If you go to my Deviant art page you can read their story. and see their pictures. I am non of my OC's. In Maximum ride I am Max. Although you would know that if you read the last post ><'
Kaylie is having her birthday party Friday at 1. I hope to go. So far it looks like I will be able to...though things CAN change lol.
And now what has been bothering me of late. Caleb. I started having more then friends kind of feelings so I told him as to stop all the things that made me feel like that. i.e. tugging on the back of my shirt. acting like a chibi, following me around that kind of thing. but when I do he tells me Heather likes him. and that we need to figure things out because there is a love traingle going on between us. I said no there isnt. I am with James, and I never planed on leaving him. I was just letting him know we need to not be as close. Him and Heather starts dating and things are a little rocky, I help whenever I can. He starts not talking to me as much, which was fine. I didnt mind all that much. BUT THEN when he sees me he is all depressed and clingy to Heather. I could handle that. I had turned him down. He was going to be hurt. AND THEN TODAY I find out James had told Brandon he was pissed at Caleb for the way he went from flirting with me to going out with Heather. Brandon wants to know why but James didnt feel like talking about it. So Brandon goes to Caleb and asks why. Caleb said he didnt know but since he turned ME down (the nerve!!!) that James should be thanking him. I didnt know this until today when James wanted to talk to Heather alone and they left Caleb and me behind. I tried cheering him up but he jerks away from me and says I dont like you like that. Well one thing leads to another and he tells me that. I wanted to punch him right then and there. I could not believe him! I went quite and let him ramble a bit not really listening and then he says 'What do you want me to do? Take you?' I then said no and said lets start walking they are probably through talking.
of course I told Heather...well all except the 'Take me" part. I didnt want her to know that. I did tell James though. I did tell Heather that if he doesnt stop being an Ass I didnt want to be around him anymore.
That was the end of that little drama....until right before Heather left she smacked cheyenne on the cheek, and then kissed it. Then Caleb asked for a kiss, so she pop kissed him, then I said 'Heather my lips hurt, will you kiss them?' and she popped kissed me as well. He was SO pissed about that! Heather told me after they had left. He was all like you know she likes likes you right? and she likes likes me to...which Heather then told me I didnt and he goes yeah right.
if he doesnt act better he is going to loose his (as he puts it) 'best friend that is a girl'
*Sigh* I just loovvveeee people lol. I am thinking about cutting ties with a few people. They are getting on my LAST nerve!
I got to remember to correct Brandon soon...or else see if James will. I dont like knowing he thinks I was trying to hurt James. I WILL NOT NEVER EVER HURT JAMES AGAIN! I love him way to damn much to throw what we have away for some jerk who thinks I still like him.
I have really found my one and only ^-^ oh! and I am reading Maximum Ride to him ~♥~ The novel. The manga leaves to much out. Plus Maxs hair isnt the right color and Fangs is to long and Nudge has boobs....thats just not right ><
RAWR,
Ari ~♥~
But while I was there (buying the awesome purple dress that looks good on me) Anne, at the time I didnt know her name, saw my Kyo bag and we started talking about anime, animazement (she was there this last year) and I told her about Otaku Club ^-^ Her and her friend Kat are comming to the next meeting.....YAY!!!!! lol
Anywhos I started drawing my Maximum Ride OC's again. Avril and Adam. Fangs older twin siblings. Fang doesnt know about them but they know about Fang. If you go to my Deviant art page you can read their story. and see their pictures. I am non of my OC's. In Maximum ride I am Max. Although you would know that if you read the last post ><'
Kaylie is having her birthday party Friday at 1. I hope to go. So far it looks like I will be able to...though things CAN change lol.
And now what has been bothering me of late. Caleb. I started having more then friends kind of feelings so I told him as to stop all the things that made me feel like that. i.e. tugging on the back of my shirt. acting like a chibi, following me around that kind of thing. but when I do he tells me Heather likes him. and that we need to figure things out because there is a love traingle going on between us. I said no there isnt. I am with James, and I never planed on leaving him. I was just letting him know we need to not be as close. Him and Heather starts dating and things are a little rocky, I help whenever I can. He starts not talking to me as much, which was fine. I didnt mind all that much. BUT THEN when he sees me he is all depressed and clingy to Heather. I could handle that. I had turned him down. He was going to be hurt. AND THEN TODAY I find out James had told Brandon he was pissed at Caleb for the way he went from flirting with me to going out with Heather. Brandon wants to know why but James didnt feel like talking about it. So Brandon goes to Caleb and asks why. Caleb said he didnt know but since he turned ME down (the nerve!!!) that James should be thanking him. I didnt know this until today when James wanted to talk to Heather alone and they left Caleb and me behind. I tried cheering him up but he jerks away from me and says I dont like you like that. Well one thing leads to another and he tells me that. I wanted to punch him right then and there. I could not believe him! I went quite and let him ramble a bit not really listening and then he says 'What do you want me to do? Take you?' I then said no and said lets start walking they are probably through talking.
of course I told Heather...well all except the 'Take me" part. I didnt want her to know that. I did tell James though. I did tell Heather that if he doesnt stop being an Ass I didnt want to be around him anymore.
That was the end of that little drama....until right before Heather left she smacked cheyenne on the cheek, and then kissed it. Then Caleb asked for a kiss, so she pop kissed him, then I said 'Heather my lips hurt, will you kiss them?' and she popped kissed me as well. He was SO pissed about that! Heather told me after they had left. He was all like you know she likes likes you right? and she likes likes me to...which Heather then told me I didnt and he goes yeah right.
if he doesnt act better he is going to loose his (as he puts it) 'best friend that is a girl'
*Sigh* I just loovvveeee people lol. I am thinking about cutting ties with a few people. They are getting on my LAST nerve!
I got to remember to correct Brandon soon...or else see if James will. I dont like knowing he thinks I was trying to hurt James. I WILL NOT NEVER EVER HURT JAMES AGAIN! I love him way to damn much to throw what we have away for some jerk who thinks I still like him.
I have really found my one and only ^-^ oh! and I am reading Maximum Ride to him ~♥~ The novel. The manga leaves to much out. Plus Maxs hair isnt the right color and Fangs is to long and Nudge has boobs....thats just not right ><
RAWR,
Ari ~♥~
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Ari-Chama back in action!!!
Hello to all!!!! I am black and to stay, I will be posting at least one a week just to keep this going,
Ok! First things first, The Otaku Club is going good, I was hoping better but I am patient ^-^
Next is I am getting a little depressed (but just a little) and I think I came up with a way to make me better =^-^=
That is WRITE! Yes Write, I have been fangirling (aka Otaku-ing) Maximum ride for close to 5 years, I have started some stories with me as Max (Kay picked me and I picked her Iggy) and Fang (Who is Rae,) and how we fight, and end up together! Then a wrote some stories about Yu-Gi-Oh! I am such a dork >< Anyways what brings all this up is a friend of mine just realized it was out *Shocker she put herself as Max* If you knew her then you would know she is the main character of whatever it is she likes -_-' SOOO not original!
Kay chooses who I am, or else another one of my friends, we go by how we act, not who is the star kind of thing. I am not always the main character in things, like in Lucky Star I am Kagame (The long haired purple girl) and in Yu-Gi-Oh! I am Tea, or Anzu in Japanese. In Soul Eater I am Tsubaki (Although with Soul Eater there isnt just one main character there are 7 main ones) The last can go on! I am the character that fits me the most, I dont become that character that character becomes me.
That is the difference between us. Plus she thinks she knows everything, Hell before she even knew anything about it she tried saying the Manga came out first, when the first NOVEL came out in 2005 the Manga came out LAST YEAR!!! (2009)
If I were her I wouldnt rush in and say whatever the hell I thought was right, I would make SURE I was right.
I dont like the manga because it isnt like the novel, example The poster of Fang and Max (which I own thanks to Yen+) Max is braiding Fangs hair while he sleeps, in the book that would never EVER happen! and in the manga they turn Nudge into a teenager with huge boobs, in the novel that didnt happen as well, they also change the story a bit, I just cant like the manga, unfortunately because of Maximum Ride I started likeing Yen+ (Yep thats the whole reason I picked it up in the first place!)
If you were like me and had went on to Deviant when it was still like a novel then you would have found 16 images to it, now go on and there is like 11509 all because of some stupid Manga!
It royally pisses me off!
Ok that is all I am going to say!
Goodnight,
Ari~♥~
Ok! First things first, The Otaku Club is going good, I was hoping better but I am patient ^-^
Next is I am getting a little depressed (but just a little) and I think I came up with a way to make me better =^-^=
That is WRITE! Yes Write, I have been fangirling (aka Otaku-ing) Maximum ride for close to 5 years, I have started some stories with me as Max (Kay picked me and I picked her Iggy) and Fang (Who is Rae,) and how we fight, and end up together! Then a wrote some stories about Yu-Gi-Oh! I am such a dork >< Anyways what brings all this up is a friend of mine just realized it was out *Shocker she put herself as Max* If you knew her then you would know she is the main character of whatever it is she likes -_-' SOOO not original!
Kay chooses who I am, or else another one of my friends, we go by how we act, not who is the star kind of thing. I am not always the main character in things, like in Lucky Star I am Kagame (The long haired purple girl) and in Yu-Gi-Oh! I am Tea, or Anzu in Japanese. In Soul Eater I am Tsubaki (Although with Soul Eater there isnt just one main character there are 7 main ones) The last can go on! I am the character that fits me the most, I dont become that character that character becomes me.
That is the difference between us. Plus she thinks she knows everything, Hell before she even knew anything about it she tried saying the Manga came out first, when the first NOVEL came out in 2005 the Manga came out LAST YEAR!!! (2009)
If I were her I wouldnt rush in and say whatever the hell I thought was right, I would make SURE I was right.
I dont like the manga because it isnt like the novel, example The poster of Fang and Max (which I own thanks to Yen+) Max is braiding Fangs hair while he sleeps, in the book that would never EVER happen! and in the manga they turn Nudge into a teenager with huge boobs, in the novel that didnt happen as well, they also change the story a bit, I just cant like the manga, unfortunately because of Maximum Ride I started likeing Yen+ (Yep thats the whole reason I picked it up in the first place!)
If you were like me and had went on to Deviant when it was still like a novel then you would have found 16 images to it, now go on and there is like 11509 all because of some stupid Manga!
It royally pisses me off!
Ok that is all I am going to say!
Goodnight,
Ari~♥~
Sunday, May 16, 2010
I dont think people are even reading...oh well I am still going to post blogs.
It is 11 days till Animazement and I feel like crap :( I dont have any money saved up and all I have for a costume is my Rin from Fate Stay Night. It was my first cosplay ever. I am proud of it but I wish I could have made another one for this year. I am going to make one for next year...unless I can somehow make it in 11 days ><
Ok to everyone Lolita...How do you see Lolita as? A way of life? or just a fashion statement?
Please comment your answer. ~^-^~
It is 11 days till Animazement and I feel like crap :( I dont have any money saved up and all I have for a costume is my Rin from Fate Stay Night. It was my first cosplay ever. I am proud of it but I wish I could have made another one for this year. I am going to make one for next year...unless I can somehow make it in 11 days ><
Ok to everyone Lolita...How do you see Lolita as? A way of life? or just a fashion statement?
Please comment your answer. ~^-^~
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
My question to all those Lolitas!!!
Ok I know its been awhile since I was online...sorry...I dont have internet all the time...unfortunately. I do have a lot to talk about...but I dont have much time right now so I shall tell you about that later.
I am on here now trying to find what Lolita means. I have read so many things and I have tried to understand it on my own...but now I need help.
I understand that there are people (mostly girls) that dress Lolita and they walk in groups and act childish. However I also know those that do that dress differently on other days. They dont dress like that ALL the TIME!
You are probably wondering why I cant understand Lolita if I can understand that.
I am having problems because my friend that is REALLY into Lolita keeps saying that lolitas only dress lolita and that they hate those that only dress Lolita just to dress (aka me)
If anyone that reads this can help me. Please do!!!
I am on here now trying to find what Lolita means. I have read so many things and I have tried to understand it on my own...but now I need help.
I understand that there are people (mostly girls) that dress Lolita and they walk in groups and act childish. However I also know those that do that dress differently on other days. They dont dress like that ALL the TIME!
You are probably wondering why I cant understand Lolita if I can understand that.
I am having problems because my friend that is REALLY into Lolita keeps saying that lolitas only dress lolita and that they hate those that only dress Lolita just to dress (aka me)
If anyone that reads this can help me. Please do!!!
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