WOW How long has it been?

Yesh it has been awhile since I have blogged...I have been in a funk that just isnt cool anymore :/

I now work at Dominos.Only on the weekends :( though. I want to try to get another job ;)

My school is at a stand still once again...I am just like my mom :C I just cant find the motivation to do it...it really sucks because I really want to go to college! >:D I really want to. But not the community college kind but the dorm room kind. Kay is going to one and I really want to ^_^ But to do so I have to get a scholarship and there is NO way I am...since I am home schooled and all...I wonder if there is something I can do to make this all better...Maybe I should get anti-depresses, that might be for the best...but I dont know how I will go and get them and all that, since James is my ride nowdays and he doesnt want me on them :/ what to do, what to do..

Well one good thing James and I have worked things out ^-^ and are stronger now! I really hope things can stay like this...You see I have felt like his love was slipping from me...Ever since he met Ashley I have felt like i was second best. Like he didnt have to show me how much he loved me, etc etc. Well I got fed up with it. If I meant soo much to him he needed to start showing it (and I dont mean in buying me things either!) I told him I just wanted to be friends. I loved him soo much, but things have changed...and by changing I just didnt feel all that happy anymore :( He started crying and just stairing at me. I told him about all the things that bothered me. All the times my heart hurt just thinking about. All the things he did for others but not me (and how I REALLY wanted him to do it to me(like breakfast!))
He kept nodding and crying, finally he said the words I really needed to hear. (Not telling you) and I started crying I told him I was sorry over and over and he just kept hugging me tightly (after about a minute I realized he probably thought me saying Im sorry that I was leaving him) When he said I love you soo much, I looked him in the eye and said I love you to, I will never leave...amd me kissed and hugged and cried. I felt soo happy to be in his arms and him holding me so tightly. I dont want to ever forget that night <3 The night I opened up and finally put all my thoughts and feelings on the line. Me and him fixed it and ever since then I have felt like it use to. I dont blame him or anyone else for all the pain I felt, I never told anyone instead I kept pushing away and pushing away...

On to more EXCITING news! I got the complete Chobits manga (^-^) Its in the new 2 collectors edition books. I love them soo much!!! I also got four Aero shirts (which I would never in a million years buy for myself!) and Mudd jeans (WHICH I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR!!!!!!!) all that is earlier Christmas!!!! I wish I could say I was getting really awesome gothic clothes...but my mom isnt that awesome and my dad...well I might be getting awesome gothic clothes from him :/ We well just have to wait and see. Gram just gave me money (which I already spent) on food at subway and a Cancer shirt from Wal-mart ^-^ I love that shirt! I have been working hard on making sure chey got a special christmas...I got her complete Powerpuff Girls seasons, and Laptop (which I gave to her early) Futurama seasons 1-4 and a cosplay. Which I just got to get the gloves, mustache and shoes for. (I already spent $100 on it :( but it was worth it)

Ok it is really late and I need sleep, gots to work tomorrow...*sigh* I hope I find my Motivation soon, or else I am going to fall behind ANOTHER year -_-' Any tips?


~Ari M.

Things and people.

Maybe I am paranoid? I dont really care. I try to ignore the stares, and all the whispers. But lately it has been getting worse...this is way my mom took me out of school art a young age. She was worried I would turn out like her. Even though for SO long I havent really been near a lot of people, I am now. I like being surrounded by people I know...even if some hurt me, I still want them around. I know a few talk about me, and not in a good way.

Yes I am 18, and yes I know who I am. I'm not someone who tries to follow the crowd. I dress however I want, I act how a like, and I dont care what other people say about me...just my friends...I worry what they will say/think. If your someone random I couldnt care less if you think Kay is hotter them me (deviant art, and SHE IS <3!!!) I dont care if my outfit looks wannabe-ish/slutty to you. I know its not. But if anyone of my friends think that, its hurts. If you think I am mean its hurts. The two things that are really important to me is James (1st) and then my friends (2nd) Kay, Rae, JJ, Sara, Liz, Mike, and Heather. They are soo important!!!! (I am not including anyone that WAS my friend, but kept hurting me.)


What brought this on, is stress. Simple. Plus a fight I had with someone about a month ago. I finally stopped talking to her, and I was getting over what had happened. (long story, you dont need to know) when she texts me out of the blue. I had been thinking about her, for she kept popping into my head a lot. In the end I told I forgive her, just I will never watch any of her videos, or read anything she posts online expect her Twitter. Which I am thinking about changing that as well...I dont want to get to close, because I will be hurt by her again and again. She doesnt act all that nice to me. I understand she has had problems with people before. but so have I. Everyone is different and so I have moved on, she hasnt.

I think its the Holidays that have been infecting me :( My family is tore apart, Me and James dont have our own place or car so our life is planned AROUND others plans. Its all so frustrating!!!!

Also at work everyone acts weird around me. James can easily talk to them and kid. Its a little harder for me. I still have some of those walls up. Im trying to brake them down, but I know if I do, I will get hurt. Maybe not at first, but I will.

I know noone will read these, fine by me. I really use this to get things outta my head and writing them down helps me think better. I post them so my friends that I love can read them and see whats going on, but no one seems to have the time anymore...I dont know why I even try anymore...

Ari.

Monopoly!!!

The other day, me, James and Chey played the old game Monopoly :D Chey quit after about a hour, me and James split the money and put all her property up for sale again.

   Me and James continued playing, he was winning and winning. I lost.

BUT! before I went out I played the game, in a weird, cheating, FUN fashion.
If you ever try this way, make sure you are playing with someone who is a good sport, and the fact that they will win either way doesnt hurt lol

I landed on one of the yellow spaces with a hotel on it. I pulled all the 20’s from the bank and paid it off, and then the tens. lol. James was laughing and telling me nooo, but he still took the money lol. I threw half the 500’s in the Free Parking (Which I landed on lol) James made me pay all my money when I had it. After a while, and his money stack having more then the bank XD, I decided to try to win ONE LAST TIME! I convinced  him to put all his money into free parking. As I did the same, just with all the money from the bank lol. We rolled and rolled and then somehow we both ended up at the Just Visiting 10 spaces from Free Parking. James said only one dice now. so we rolled, and rolled and ROLLED and I went ONE F-ING SPACE!!!!! then he landed RIGHT ON IT!!!!   T^T I last wahhhh! lol  Oh well I have other chances lol.

And that was my Monopoly game lol.

I am going to a fair Sunday, if the rain lets up!  and the Otaku Club has a meeting Saturday I hope people will show up! We have to get more people in there and a bigger place. Dustin is allowing us to use his place but I am thinking that will only last a little while, before something runes it…oh well.

The rain is putting me to sleep lol

Ari-Kitty  =^._.^=

decisions decisions...

I have took some of my blogs down...I decided not to go that way...

I really have to keep my mind together >< Okies fav picture of James and mine anniversary


I just LOVE this photo ^-^

Anywhos I am playing Professor Layton and the Curious Village again. For the 4th time. I will then play Professor Layton and the Diabolical Box. For the second time. Then after those two I shall play the Professor Layton and the Unwound Future. FOR THE 1ST TIME!!!!
Im sooo excited!!!! and to share my happness with you, my wonderful viewer, is a photo of Layton and Luke ^-^ Lolz I found this on Deviant art. Its by http://konirathax.deviantart.com/ Enjoy ^-^

BLAH!

I AM SICK! I HATE BEING SICK!!!! WHAY MUST I BE SICK!!!!!

Now excuse me while I go die XP

Trying to fix something...

I have gotten a lot more snappish at James of late, and I figured out why. I miss Ashley. It was because of him that I had so many problems being friends with her, and I am tired of listening to everyone else. I want my own life, and not one wrapped around James's life. I do not want that, yet it seemed to be happening. So Ash, if you ever read this, I wanna try again. I want things to be different then what they are :) I wanna try, at least try.

If you dont then fine with me. I understand ^-^

Okies well Thats all I wanted to say, Oh! and that I am making me and you a video, I just gotta find the right song L:

Ari

life YAY!

Today was...awesomewonderfulconfusinghurtfulpissedjealous all at once! lol First hurtful, I awoke with a freaking back and neck pain >:( then even more hurtful because I forgot to throw James work closes IN the basket, not on the floor so he was all like D: what am I going to wear kind of thing, and then :/ he figured out what to do ^-^' and then we went to Salvation Army to look for Dustin a new chair instead I found the puffy part of the 'Princess dress' That I am going to use in a cosplay ^-^
After I bought it James put it on IN THE STORE and walked out wearing it! I love him SOOO much XD. Then we headed over to sunset where I found a shit load of things I wanted...but I dont have any room in my room so I had to leave them T^T Then we went and got ice cream at the Coffie X-Change cafe on sunset, on the way there James and Dustin was goofing around and I told them to stop, james did it one more time, so I took my broken (YES BROKEN )

ring and handed back to him. He looked SOOO deprissed :( I wanted to cry and what I had done. I then took it back from him and was all like l: Great two times in one day...I must be going for the record. In which he started smiling and said nope not two :) I looked at him >_> YOU ASS! He then started laughing and I was laughing :D
After the ice cream James had to go to work, and me, and chey and dustin went to the Antic Mall on Sunset....I found chey a original Nightmare on Elm street 4 poster. I gotz it for her :D and I got the How to Train your Dragon novel ^-^ YAY!!!!

On to the Asheboro Mall!!!! Where I got James his birthday gift(that just leaves our 4 year anniversary gift) Call of Duty : World of War, with the Nazi Zombies XD, I then got chey a shirt at JCPennys, and a Freddy vs Jason vs Ash comic, and then we headed home >_< My day was really something else ^-^

Also Chey scratched Dustin beside the eye <_< She is feeling really REALLY bad right now, I already tried all I could think of to cheer her up, to NO luck v_v What can I say I am not all that great for cheering up someone -_-

Okies I am tired, and I have a buttload of schoolwork to do (yes on a Saturday)Thats ways I can go to Jorden lake tomorries!!!!

I am also working on MY SUPER EPIC OF AWESOMNESS VIDEO!!!! Just wait, it will kick the ass of all my others one ^-^

Otaku kitty Ari out!

Hello so on and what forth

My life is back to ground O. Trevor and Lee finally went home (FINALLY) and the whole DSS thing is starting to COOL down YAY ^-^ I am still looking for a job V_V and I hope to finish High School this year...all my other friends are already out of school YAY! at the same time I am still in school BOO! XD

I have a LIST of WONDERFUL games that I enjoy playing ^-^ and hope to finish soon so I can play the others! (I only play three games at once D:)
The LIST!!!!
A witches Tale (DS) IT IS AWESOME!!! (ON THE LAST LEVEL YAY!!!!)
Mario Super Galaxy (WII) JUST AS AWESOME ONLY HAVE 50-SOME STARS D:
Mario and Luigi : Superstar Saga (DS) not far in it at ALL >:(

Okies thats all for the update like thingy ^-^ I hope to have more to write about <3
(or bitch about -_-')

Ari Kitty <3

The Nutless Squirrel

Hello people I am Ari’s other half. I wish to discuss a very important issue that needs everyone’s attention. You see, once apon a time, in a far far away galaxy there was a squirrel that could not find his nuts. He was a very sad lonely squirrel. All he wanted was to find his nuts. HE searched the websites and looked everywhere he went but he could not find them. Finally he came to the realization that he needed help. He asked and asked where ever he went but no one answered his question. Exhausted and confused, he finally returned home. As he sat there contemplating, he looked out his window. His next door neighbor was a very adventurous gal. “Hey”, he exclaimed. “Maybe she can help me find my nuts!”  As he made his way out to her house he was very excited, he finally might find his nuts. He knocked her door and waited. A little while later she answered the door, “Hey is there anything I could help with Bill,” she asked. “Why yes, Sally, there is. I was wondering if you could help me find my nuts,” he replied. She stood in the door way eyeing him for a few seconds. Then with bright smile she said, “Sure I can help you find your nuts.” She then invited him in the house. A few hours later he reemerged from Sally’s house. He thanked her for all her help and then started walking back toward his house. After shutting his door, he went back to his computer and pushed the “on” button. “Well the sex was great, but I still don’t know where my nuts are!”

Do you know the moral of the story? Well I do and I would like you tell me what you think it is. I will be awaiting your replies.

Hello all AGAIN!

Well I have finished reading the Maximum Ride books (the ones that are out anyway) and they are AWESOME!!!! I cant believe I waited this  long to read them all!!!! I cried. (HOW COULD I NOT D:) and then laughed a little, because I know how the story will end :D. Max will start kissing Dylan and then sometime happens and she has to choose him over Fang, then more (yes MORE) things happen and some new avian (Possibly with the name Ari XDDD) will come in and be with Fangs group. Him and her get closer and closer making Maxs blood boil, Which will set off some more things (i.e. attacks.)

    Then near the end, after everyone is ok and all that, Ari will meet Dylan for the first time and fall MADLY in love with him ^-^ and he realizes even though he was ‘made’ for Max he can choose his own life to live. And he chooses Ari. Which then just leaves Max and Fang. By this time Angel will have learned how to be a leader and starts leading them in the RIGHT direction. Which means Max and Fang can live happily together, still with the flock but not hurting them anymore.

Now if that will be the last book…I doubt it. I believe the next book will more or less be about Iggy getting his sight back. Of course in that book Ari and Dylan are going to fight, and Fang will take Ari’s side making Max take Dylans side and there will be a HUGE couples fight (not really hurting each other, just yelling and screaming) and by the end things will not be looking good, which is where James Patterson will start on the next book (titled Nudge (or gazzy)) If its Nudge then its how she becomes a famous fashion decorator and starts a new fashion that has somthing to do with feathers. In this book Iggy will meet someone,(if he hadnt in the other book Titled Iggy) and they will br totally in love and run away together and everything. Max and Fang finally get back together and Ari and Dylan do as well.

Ok thats all I am writing…For I am starting to make it sound like a soap-opra XDDD Oh! somtime during all this Total and Akila will have THREE litters of puppies. Some will have wings making the flock start to wonder if their kids will as well….

Now thats out of the way…lets see….whats new with me??? I got a shirt (about two or more weeks ago) it has a Japanese Lucky Cat on front and its green and it says ‘This is my Lucky Shirt” XDDD 

Here is the shirt, with my AWESOME skirt and boots XDD (Yes I am wearing Kitty ears! Arnt they just so KAWAII!!!!) I have a yin/yang bell on a black ribbon.

 

Oh! I now also have this connected to my Windows Live Writer!!! So I can pust stuff a lot easier now ^-^

 

Meow- Ari

GRRRRR~

My life is starting to fall downhill once more -_-'

1 : No ONE!!! and I do mean NO ONE wants to help me expect my own blood!!! I mean with the fall festival. Well thats partially true. No one wants to help me money wise. I have only four that will help me with the little things!

2 : I am starting to find all those 'friends' of mine are really fake. One exceptionally! She sits there telling everyone I am like her ONLY friend and then when I ask for her opinion on things she tells me I am a wannbe and that I cant dress the style so I shouldnt, or else she barely talks to me and then when I do talk to her she is busy with other people. No I am only her friend when she needs me to be. I am SO CLOSE to just SCREAMING at her to get LOST! I am not someones PLAY THING!!!

3 : I cant get a job. I mean I can but no one needs me, and if they do need someone then its already taken... >(o)< <---Pissed off face XDDD

4 : There is about 5 people waiting for me to fail. To fall on my ass and not get back up.I would expect thats not me! I do not stay down! Nor will I ever.

and those are the things peeing me off today...yes JUST today -_-'

What I can do to stop some of this is really simple DELETE EVERYTHING (and I do mean everything) I HAVE ONLINE AND TELL EVERYONE F YOU! Just stop going online and stop caring what others think/do. I have almost everyones numbers...so I mean I can still talk to them and everything I just wouldnt have any more drama. If anyone starts to try to start drama I can just walk away...actully I could do that on here as well...I might try that.

So if I ever just log off not telling you why its because you or someone around me is starting drama ^-^

JF + MM 4 EVER
Ari

MAJOR UPDATE!!!

First I am sorry for not posting sooner....I have been busy with whatnot.

I have decided to re-write the story of Anything Alex...I had wrote more then whats posted up but I didnt like it!
I have also came up with the MOST AWESOME-EVER PLOT for the story!!! I was up thinking and worrying over things, when the plot came to me!

SO far I have yet to find a story of Alice (havent looked in fanfiction I am sure its in there somewhere) where the creatures come to our world. That is all I am telling you guys!!!

AND!!! I have decided to write my own story like Mike and Ashley!!! Where everyone goes to school and they are either a Witch/WIzard/Vampire/Were- things (cats, rodents, wolfs, etc) Shapeshifters, Zombies, Sirens, etc.
The idea came from Mike, who after reading Vampire Knight, wanted to make his own! Ashley I really dont know...I showed Mike Rosaro + Vampire (Manga/Anime) that I have liked since it came out last year. Its basecally what Mike and Ashley are wanting to do. There is also Nightschool that is like it. I really dont know what all gave them the ideas, but they gave me the idea and I am going to be working on that during my FREE time

I am also working crafts (buttons, T-shirts, Bags, drawings, etc) for the Asheboro Fall Festival this year. If things go right then you will see me set up at Animazement 2011 Artist Ally ^-^

ON top of ALL that, I have school work to deal with T^T

THAT IS ALL!!!!
Farwell,
Ari

(For those that follow me to ALL my sites, yes I did post this on ALL of them lol I just want to make sure I havent left anyone out ^-^)

being busy!!!

I finished the photos and then got more requests ^-^ I have also been busy making Anime Coloring books. Its a little harder then you think but I can do it just fine.

I have also cleaned my desk off, moved my lamp to where it wont bother Chey and started writing some more on my random story. (I have no idea where it is headed)

Later I am making a video for a friend of mine (on youtube) PurpleGothicFairy (Darkmist is the name she is going by) I am going to try and send it to her by e-mail I dont know if it will work or not, Heres to hopping. If not then I will upload it to mine and she will download it and upload `3it to hers...I know its crazy but w/e.

If you would like me to do a video/photo for you I will. Just ask ^-^

RAWR
Ari

YAY!!!

Sorry I havent been on in a while...thats because i didnt have a laptop...BUT NOW I DO!!!! Dad got me a Dell Inspiron pink lol and now I am busey making videos pictures and doing all the awesome stuff I can do ^-^ I am also blogging a lot more lol (If you havent noticed I have made the True Otaku life into another blog ^-^)

WHAT I MUST DO!!!!
Finish the picture of me and Ash
Make one of me and Kay (After finding the right base ^-^')
write more/finish the Anything Alex story
AND come up with more ideas for the Otaku club...yay...work lol

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Check out my Youtube and Deviantart i have uploaded a lot more awesome stuff of mine ~♥~

RAWR
Ari

RANDOM!!!

On a road trip with my dad and James!!!! In Illinois for the night, heading to Kansas.

I will post more when I get a better chance I should be going to sleep soon though I am still uploading pics...GRRR why must things take so long!!!! lol Totoro and Piplup are with me ^-^ I have them buckled when were on the road! THEY NEED TO BE SAFE!!!!!

RAWR,
Ari

Life and other things (True Otaku life:girl style)

Well my life feels like its going down hill fast. I'm sure all the people who hate me are trilled to hear this and all that comes with it. I hate how I feel like I am drowning and no one is going to help me out.

Me and my sister needed to get away for awhile so we went to Dustins for just six days. Heather stayed there with us as well. Me cheyenne and Heather all slept in the living room, James and Dustin in the bedroom. During that time me and James did not have sex. nor did anyone else in that house. RIght now DSS (Department of Social Services) is now saying I abused my sister by having sex right in front of her, and that Trevor is unfit to live at Grams with us. I need all the help I can in setting things right. I know that Trevor is wild at times, but he has gotten use to Gram and me and Cheyenne and we know how to handle him. Sending him to a new home would do more damage then good. PEOPLE NEED TO LEAVE MY FAMILY ALONE!!! I MEAN WHAT THE HELL DID WE DO TO THEM (YOU)!!!!!!!! I have had sooo many freaking problems and then one wants to say I, I ,need to grow up. I have grown up. I have had to go through so much shit that right now realty is nothing but what I breath. If you are reading this and keep thinking how "idiotic" this all is then you dont understand any of these things. You have never had to worry how you are going to get by the next day. Things like this is real and I have had to face them. NOW that me and Cheyenne has a nice "stable" place to live people are saying we dont. People need to learn to keep their noises out of my and my familys life.

That is all. I might delete this account and all my others. Because I am tired of getting harassed about false and idiotic stuff.

True Otaku Life : Girl Style (3)

I have uploaded the first part to my alice in wonderland fan fiction. Its about this girl named Alex and she is a descendant of Alice. All her life she searches for the white rabbit, and when she finally starts liking her life things get....confusing.

Its on my Deviant Art mostly because I dont have a fanfiction.net account. http://bellaari-edwardjames.deviantart.com/ that is the link to y Deviant art ^-^

On another note my birthday is July 3rd TOMORROW!!! my emotions have been like a roller coaster all week!!! I have Otaku-ed over do many things this pass two weeks its not funny! I feel like my head is about to explode with ideas for all the things I keep coming up with XD Next month I hope to buy the Sailor Mars cosplay. and then the wig the next month. Thats one of the cosplays I wanted to have for next Animazement! I also hope to start on the others...I also hope to get a job, but till then School work school wor school work!!!

TTFN!
Rawr,
Ari~♥~

Good morning to all you happy people ^-^ Today I spent about three hours trying to find out if three people are allowed to get married in the USA. I was wondering because on this old movie (from tv) this man married like 13 woman and I think it was in the USA that this was...well I was trying to find out if that could be possible.

Plus I wish to marry three people lol j/k

Anyways I am also trying to get over my Writers block and I am trying to figure out how to make a Totoro Cosplay...YAY! oh well I guess if I dont figure that out I still have Tao, Tsubaki and Sailor Mars ^-^ Plus I want to try to do a Mrs. Bitters cosplay lol

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 5 DAYS!!!!!
That is all

Rawr,
Ari~♥~

True Otaku life : Girl style (2)

I didnt get the job :'( but they said to come back once school is back in, so I still have a chance. At least they asked for a interview more then I can say the others did.

But while I was there (buying the awesome purple dress that looks good on me) Anne, at the time I didnt know her name, saw my Kyo bag and we started talking about anime, animazement (she was there this last year) and I told her about Otaku Club ^-^ Her and her friend Kat are comming to the next meeting.....YAY!!!!! lol

Anywhos I started drawing my Maximum Ride OC's again. Avril and Adam. Fangs older twin siblings. Fang doesnt know about them but they know about Fang. If you go to my Deviant art page you can read their story. and see their pictures. I am non of my OC's. In Maximum ride I am Max. Although you would know that if you read the last post ><'

Kaylie is having her birthday party Friday at 1. I hope to go. So far it looks like I will be able to...though things CAN change lol.

And now what has been bothering me of late. Caleb. I started having more then friends kind of feelings so I told him as to stop all the things that made me feel like that. i.e. tugging on the back of my shirt. acting like a chibi, following me around that kind of thing. but when I do he tells me Heather likes him. and that we need to figure things out because there is a love traingle going on between us. I said no there isnt. I am with James, and I never planed on leaving him. I was just letting him know we need to not be as close. Him and Heather starts dating and things are a little rocky, I help whenever I can. He starts not talking to me as much, which was fine. I didnt mind all that much. BUT THEN when he sees me he is all depressed and clingy to Heather. I could handle that. I had turned him down. He was going to be hurt. AND THEN TODAY I find out James had told Brandon he was pissed at Caleb for the way he went from flirting with me to going out with Heather. Brandon wants to know why but James didnt feel like talking about it. So Brandon goes to Caleb and asks why. Caleb said he didnt know but since he turned ME down (the nerve!!!) that James should be thanking him. I didnt know this until today when James wanted to talk to Heather alone and they left Caleb and me behind. I tried cheering him up but he jerks away from me and says I dont like you like that. Well one thing leads to another and he tells me that. I wanted to punch him right then and there. I could not believe him! I went quite and let him ramble a bit not really listening and then he says 'What do you want me to do? Take you?' I then said no and said lets start walking they are probably through talking.

of course I told Heather...well all except the 'Take me" part. I didnt want her to know that. I did tell James though. I did tell Heather that if he doesnt stop being an Ass I didnt want to be around him anymore.
That was the end of that little drama....until right before Heather left she smacked cheyenne on the cheek, and then kissed it. Then Caleb asked for a kiss, so she pop kissed him, then I said 'Heather my lips hurt, will you kiss them?' and she popped kissed me as well. He was SO pissed about that! Heather told me after they had left. He was all like you know she likes likes you right? and she likes likes me to...which Heather then told me I didnt and he goes yeah right.

if he doesnt act better he is going to loose his (as he puts it) 'best friend that is a girl'

*Sigh* I just loovvveeee people lol. I am thinking about cutting ties with a few people. They are getting on my LAST nerve!

I got to remember to correct Brandon soon...or else see if James will. I dont like knowing he thinks I was trying to hurt James. I WILL NOT NEVER EVER HURT JAMES AGAIN! I love him way to damn much to throw what we have away for some jerk who thinks I still like him.

I have really found my one and only ^-^ oh! and I am reading Maximum Ride to him ~♥~ The novel. The manga leaves to much out. Plus Maxs hair isnt the right color and Fangs is to long and Nudge has boobs....thats just not right ><

RAWR,
Ari ~♥~

Ari-Chama back in action!!!

Hello to all!!!! I am black and to stay, I will be posting at least one a week just to keep this going,

Ok! First things first, The Otaku Club is going good, I was hoping better but I am patient ^-^

Next is I am getting a little depressed (but just a little) and I think I came up with a way to make me better =^-^=

That is WRITE! Yes Write, I have been fangirling (aka Otaku-ing) Maximum ride for close to 5 years, I have started some stories with me as Max (Kay picked me and I picked her Iggy) and Fang (Who is Rae,) and how we fight, and end up together! Then a wrote some stories about Yu-Gi-Oh! I am such a dork >< Anyways what brings all this up is a friend of mine just realized it was out *Shocker she put herself as Max* If you knew her then you would know she is the main character of whatever it is she likes -_-' SOOO not original!

Kay chooses who I am, or else another one of my friends, we go by how we act, not who is the star kind of thing. I am not always the main character in things, like in Lucky Star I am Kagame (The long haired purple girl) and in Yu-Gi-Oh! I am Tea, or Anzu in Japanese. In Soul Eater I am Tsubaki (Although with Soul Eater there isnt just one main character there are 7 main ones) The last can go on! I am the character that fits me the most, I dont become that character that character becomes me.

That is the difference between us. Plus she thinks she knows everything, Hell before she even knew anything about it she tried saying the Manga came out first, when the first NOVEL came out in 2005 the Manga came out LAST YEAR!!! (2009)

If I were her I wouldnt rush in and say whatever the hell I thought was right, I would make SURE I was right.

I dont like the manga because it isnt like the novel, example The poster of Fang and Max (which I own thanks to Yen+) Max is braiding Fangs hair while he sleeps, in the book that would never EVER happen! and in the manga they turn Nudge into a teenager with huge boobs, in the novel that didnt happen as well, they also change the story a bit, I just cant like the manga, unfortunately because of Maximum Ride I started likeing Yen+ (Yep thats the whole reason I picked it up in the first place!)

If you were like me and had went on to Deviant when it was still like a novel then you would have found 16 images to it, now go on and there is like 11509 all because of some stupid Manga!

It royally pisses me off!

Ok that is all I am going to say!
Goodnight,
Ari~♥~

I dont think people are even reading...oh well I am still going to post blogs.

It is 11 days till Animazement and I feel like crap :( I dont have any money saved up and all I have for a costume is my Rin from Fate Stay Night. It was my first cosplay ever. I am proud of it but I wish I could have made another one for this year. I am going to make one for next year...unless I can somehow make it in 11 days ><

Ok to everyone Lolita...How do you see Lolita as? A way of life? or just a fashion statement?

Please comment your answer. ~^-^~

My question to all those Lolitas!!!

Ok I know its been awhile since I was online...sorry...I dont have internet all the time...unfortunately. I do have a lot to talk about...but I dont have much time right now so I shall tell you about that later.

I am on here now trying to find what Lolita means. I have read so many things and I have tried to understand it on my own...but now I need help.

I understand that there are people (mostly girls) that dress Lolita and they walk in groups and act childish. However I also know those that do that dress differently on other days. They dont dress like that ALL the TIME!

You are probably wondering why I cant understand Lolita if I can understand that.

I am having problems because my friend that is REALLY into Lolita keeps saying that lolitas only dress lolita and that they hate those that only dress Lolita just to dress (aka me)

If anyone that reads this can help me. Please do!!!

Bored...

Well today I didnt do much...I watched Coraline and Knowing...they were ok lol

I cussed out a ex-friend of my friend.

I felt like shit all day yet I went outside and played with James, Chey and Lee. I pushed myself to make them happy...I normally do when it comes to James...

I am somewhat nervous about the Otaku meeting tomorrow night...I wish I had more things to add to the already bad 'learning Japanese'...but I dont which in a way I guess is a GOOD thing lol

I started writing a story...I hope to finish this one. Its about Alex a girl who wishes nothing more then a trip to wonderland...at least once before she grows up. I haven't decided if it will have a happy ending or sad...I suppose I shall post it on here. I know some people are waiting for the story on deviant art but thats about it lol. I plan on finishing it before May comes...which gives me about a month and half to finish it.
I really want to finish the story...yet all the stories I did before has ended up in the 'not finished' pile...and thats where they shall stay because I hate them now...

Tomorrow I will be going back to James house where I will try to do school work. *sigh* I will at least have more time to finish Alex's story YAY!!!*Rolls eyes* I am tired and I dont have anything else to write so farewell...

First blog - My bright idea

Blog 1...whatever

I really started this yesterday but it all got deleted somehow...

Ok let me see if I can remember what I was going to write...

I was watching Juile & Juila when I decided I wanted to write a blog like she did...Even though I have nothing good to write about...Maybe when I get a job (Please let that be soon) I can blog about making cosplays...Because thats what I really want to do.
Plus I would have somthing to actully write about. But for now you will just read about me living my life from day to day...

Oh! I won't be able to get on and post EVERY day....but I will still write the stuff and post it all at once...

Day : Wed. March 10th
Year : 2010
Time: 11:35 A.M.


I awoke just 30 minutes ago kind of feel like crap...I had a horrable dream last night and its still in my head

My Dream : I was living in a apparement buliding that the rooms were all inside like a hotel, just bigger rooms. There was all kinds of people there. three I knew in life. James, A red head with a nice male body (lol) and my fiance'e. Sara (James sister) also a red head with a great personalty. Liz Sara's twin sister. Red hair and a fiery temper.Ashley, a blonde (well now a black) really skinny and wants to be a Model.

I was possesed by something that made me corner people at night say how bad they are and kill them.

I was scared when I woke up and am still a little shaken now...

12:00 pm

Patsie came here in the room telling me I need to tell y cousin Taila to change, when I cant. Not that I dont want her to but I just cant. She wont listen to me...so I told her that and she acted like I COULD do something when I cant...

7:59 pm
I'm home now...we had to go to Wal-Mart to change Coraline...maybe I can FINALLY finish it lol. Chey (the 13 year old) is watching UFC with my 8 year old cousin Lee and James. Chey and Lee are making fun of the guys, because it seems like they are trying to make love then fight...but then again this is My sister lol (her mind has been warped) and James acts like he doesnt like it that they keep making comments like that. He is actully into the fight,

*sigh* at least my mother hasnt pissed e off yet...yet...

On a better note my sexy lover Kiku is coming home from Florida this week...I hope I get to see her soon.


I dont have anything else to write so I will get off for now...I will add more before the day is over, I'm sure about that!

Bai bai!!!!